if only forgetting someone was that easy

Say it like you mean it =)

2009-01-28T20:40:00.002+08:00

Too afraid to close our eyes.

Afraid that we might drift and lose track of the time.

The brilliant lie. Blanks my blind.

Sends ghosts back to their graves and us back to life.

I'm sorry I'm sorry Over and over Over and over.

Say it like you mean it. The best is when you say the worst is over.

It's like sayin' we had luck with a three leaf clover and you kept saying that over and over.
And I still catch you lookin' over your shoulder and it's okay,

I know the only times you really loved me were the times when you weren't sober.

And that hurts. We all hurt, We all hurt.

And I kept sayin' that Over and over Over and over.

Just say it like you mean it.

For the taste, for the sight, for the sound.

For the fight, for the weak, for the strong, for the light.

Say it like You say it like you mean it.

For the wait, for the crush, for the fear For the lush, for the love, for the hate, for the touch.

Just say it like I will wait out for you.

I will wait out Over and over Over and over. Just say it like you mean it

2009

2008-12-31T14:06:00.000+08:00

"Life is short, Break the rules, Forgive quickly, Love truly, Laugh uncontrollably,

And never regret anything that made you smile"

HAPPY 2009 Everyone!

much love <3

dear fee

2008-12-19T16:16:00.002+08:00

Hey babe,
I wanna tell you something. =)
I hope things are goin well for you, aite. Tug in, keep the smile up always.
Always remember, that i wont change for the worse. I just hope the same thing goes for you. Im sorry for all things that ive put up making it difficult for you. No more of it, as i've put up my biggest TRUST on you. Lastly, you knw i will always be here,for you. For anything and everything. Like i've always promised.
(i know you're probbaly sick of me telling you this but its all true, baby.)
Through thick and thin. To the end.
*wink

Sufi Hizrian

rain begins to fall

2008-12-15T15:40:00.003+08:00

Like the sand can seep right through your fingers so can all your day.
As those days go by you'll have me there to help you find the way.

The way I feel with you I know it's got to last forever.

And when the rain begins to fallyou'll ride my rainbow in the sky

And I will catch you if you fallyou'll never have to ask me why.

And when the rain begins to fall I'll be the sunshine in your life.

You know that we can have it all and everything will be allright.

Time goes by so fast.

You've got to have a dream.
To just hold on.

All my dreams of love began,With the reality of you.

You and I believe, That all our dreams will last forever.

And when the rain begins to fallyou'll ride my rainbow in the sky
And I will catch you if you fallyou'll never have to ask me why.
And when the rain begins to fall I'll be the sunshine in your life.
You know that we can have it all and everything will be allright.

Though the sun may hide.
We still can see the light that shines for you and me.

We'll be together all that we can be.

p.s ;

Hey babe, here's one for the smile!

*Make dimple face

No more frowning pls.

angst

2008-12-11T13:24:00.003+08:00

Angst; is used in English to describe an intense feeling of strife
well, i think its probably this. FUCK it.

Lets start.

I've gone too far to turn back. This is it. no regrets. Lets look forward. Ill face every each of it. No Matter what. Being my stubborn-self, i have had the chance to go off a few times. But i still chose not to. I dont care. Even it takes me to the rock-bottom core, even if it doesnt turn out how i really wanted it to be, atleast i know i've tried my very best and i finally know its the end. Til then, ill be satisfied and i shall bounce harder. What doesnt kill you, makes you stronger. So fuck it all. bring it on!

I sincerely apologise for all the things that i didnt meant to say, I know im not in a spot to say all that. I wont make it difficult for you. Again, im sorry. it wont happened again.Lets put aside about me, no point. I really hope you're okay over there.wIll be here if there's just anything you need either if its a listening ear or to borrow a shoulder, just simply ANYTHING. Ill be right here, like ill always do.

Fynnie sayang

2008-12-07T15:46:00.023+08:00

Yes, its another bloody sunday. anyways, A big FAT hello to all!

*Guess who's back? Back again. na na na. Sufi's back. Tell your friends.*

haha! rmbr eminem? hee.

Im feeling all dumb and dumber. I woke up from a little too much rest. And wa-la! im all giddy and blur. Somehow its already 4 in the evening. Ill shower later. =) Anyways, i think its time i let out a little something that i've kept for quite sometime. Let me introduce to everyone about this someone who eventually caught my heart and got me all deeply in love again. A Sweet-drug who i eventually got addicted to. She never fails to out a smile and make me laugh with her cute little antics. Someone who could really be patient with the crazy antics i pulled out. She's got me all fallin' deeper and deeper in love each single day.

ohkay. Well, i'll give a short brief about her. Make your guess;

>First two alphabet of her name is also in my name. ( any ideas?! )

>She's 1.6 in height. (She might be tiny, but she's all i need. *hiyak dish!)

>She like so in love with the colour pink ( ouuhhhkaaaaayy......)

>She uses a Pink Addidas Perfume (She steals my victoria secret most of the time, hee!)

>She uses a Pink Sunsilk Moisterizer (the reason i got addicted to smelling her hair)
>Her Hair colour is Darkish-Brown, slightly redish. ( daymm, im bad at describing colours)

>Puspa - St12 and Church - T-pain ( need me to explain more? )

>She likes Upin and Ipin and snapping pictures.

>She likes Star crust filled with cheese pizza, Yong tau foo and Donut

>She loves CHICKEN. (haha! =]

>She either wears a black puma or PALLAZ JAZZ PUMPS!.

>She could actually sing! (i got dumbstruck the first time i heared her sing)

By now, you should already know who she is

Let me introduce,

*Drum roll

FINI

Meet Fini. i prefer calling her Finini. haha! but then i made short and sweet to Feee. =)
Well. Sweetest little tiny yet cute person i ever met. Ohkay guys? the one that got you guys irritated with noisy text msgs tone. hahaha!

Let me share a few moments i had with her. Seriously, I had fun spending every single time with her. Ill let the pictures do the talking, may i?

First of all, the Singapore Flyers.

neoprints *kachick!

Although, we only started being real close for just a few months. Like what you said, i really do think its all worth it. And although we're not officially together yet, i really hope the future lies a greal deal for us. Lets just pray hard we have a blissful and great future. Amin.

"and im still waiting for my surprise, the one you told me about doing yesterday. Rmbr? =)"

i think, i shall end here. ill be back soon. verry soon.

*wave a salute. <3

bored

2008-12-01T19:41:00.003+08:00

this is how i look when im all shagged. ugly fugly.

So much has happened in the last few days. i can hardly recalled.
might be a boring entry, i warn ya. im all sleepy.

My wound is giving me problems. i see my flesh now. ewwww, i know. -_____-

Was supposed to get to Toa Payoh Sports hall last Sunday for the Mixed Martial Arts event, since i missed the Karate one. Eventually, i didnt notice the my work schedule says; 6pm to closing on last Saturday. Thats one day before the event. and yes, Faz told me to report at 8am the next day for the Event. So work from 6pm to 6am and then to the Mixed Martial Art event at Toa Payoh at 8am. I was all " hu-ha" but i seriously thought i could make it, although i prolly make it there with red eyes and a really shagged look. I bet i could atleast make it through the long day. So finish work, thought of having a rest. Went back home and i fall aslp ACCIDENTALLY! nice. the next thing i knew, it was already 3pm and i got like 10+ miss calls on my phone. im all dead as a rat. i shouldnt have. fuck!

i was so bored at home. So i end up meeting has n fatin. haha! they were looking for stars and colourful sweaters commonly worn by mats in floating caps. kwang kwang kwang! haha. kan kan kan?

oh well... haha.

anyways, Singapore flyers was fun, seriously. I have to say, i really miss it. And of cause, not forgetting the mango sticky rice incident. hahaha! oh! and err. Just to tell you, pls dont nagged on how bad you look, you're already perfeccctly gorgeous my dear, i mean it. My Sg flyers post might be just a short one, but you know how much it meant for me. =] i had fun, sugar.

Fyn

2008-11-24T01:37:00.001+08:00

This gentle mind, the one inside me will never hurt you.
As actions speak louder than words will ever.
So I will show you my sincerity in the shape of my still beating heart.

2008-11-19T21:41:00.005+08:00

Im sorry if i've been missing out over here in this space for quite some time.

as usually, the excuse is always either "busy" or "lazy"
haha. =)

Just quick update alright, im pretty shagged.

I had a nasty fall. Kecoh beb!. Kawan-kawan tolong jgn ketawe ye. haha.
i know its pretty hilarious. but then, i have to admit.
no matter how "macho" the person is, its very very painful.
Its a nightmare everytime i get a bath.
its killing me that i have to sleep one side and keep still all night.
believe me, i cant sit still. -_-

I've been nagging about how disgusting my hair is and all that
and so i agreed to "someone" to do something to my hair.
and..

waaaaa laaaa..

I like, i like =)
and i like yours too, seriously!
please dont touch it already, its already perfect.
the only thing you need to do is just apply moisturizer.
plenty of them, ok? =)

and oh ya!
Fatynn and Muji.

"i told you already, the prata shop kat tampines sedap tak nak, errr.. Swensons pun swensons laaa.."

-__________-

and alright!

i gotta go, baby.

ill be taking on the pain taking out the dressings to my wound.
and then to the Shower.

helll... __

2008-11-05T19:50:00.004+08:00

We're all just a bunch of pretenders.

Im just sick and tired.

You might just lead me to a pit of death.
I guess its just something im not even sure of til' i reach the end.
Change the route, or risk it high and dry?

Tell me something, so i can make a decision.

Who the one deep down inside your heart.
why didnt you just run to him?
-__-

2008-10-28T20:12:00.003+08:00

Just a quick fuck, cause im not in the mood to blog.
im seriously not in the mood to do anything.
im simply god-damn tired of everything.
it always turns to a dissapointment, doesnt it?
im puzzled. feelin quandry.
Im not even sure if its worth it. *sigh

ok, ill go take a rest!

and yeah, went off to get a haircut yesterday.
really hate my hair.
like seriously.
__

2008-10-27T18:13:00.004+08:00

Ive decided to cut the hair!

err, not sure when though.

my keyboard is giving me problems ryte now, daym.

anwy, i just want you to know that....

i had fun on this day. =)

and also on this day.

=) =)

haha. its was a pleasure =)

Hair

2008-10-23T16:24:00.002+08:00

Check out the hair.

Im still thinking.

Should i cut?

or should i not?!

2008-10-20T01:16:00.002+08:00

Got off early from work today. Pretty damn bored, til i could cry.
Staying longer and i could end up jumping in to the singapore river.
haha.

Dear HQ, thanks for the talk. haha.
Clever fcuk! you do talk sense sometimes. =)
seriously, thanks for all the advice.
appreciate it.

"Save Room" by John Legend.
you should listen!
verrrrry nice. =)

http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/johnlegend/saveroom.html

im off.
ta-ta!
*vshooshh

Saviour

2008-10-20T00:35:00.004+08:00

Every single human being has their own ways,

Different from the others, the idea is all the same.

_|_

2008-10-18T16:09:00.003+08:00

So fragile yet so devious.The solemn hypnotic.

My Dahlia, you're bathed in posession .

The unrequited dream,The song that no one sings.

A myth that I have to believe in.

Hard to say what caught my attention .Vixen crazy, Aphid Attraction.

Carve my name in my face, to recognize. Such a pheromone cult to terrorize.

"I wont let this build up inside of me."

God,
remove from me
this deception.

2008-10-16T00:16:00.002+08:00

Whatever happens, nvr fail to make an effort to smile.

seriously, nothing else is much more worth it than a smilee. =)

Sufi Hizrian's

2008-10-15T17:00:00.005+08:00

I have something on my mind.
mingling with risk and very very dangerous.
the reward's satisfying though,
im playing with Fire.
and they say, ill get burned.
but what if i dont?
hmmmm. *thinking

should i?

dont worry, i've tied up my legs. =)
ill always be here.
whenever, wherever.
24/7 just like macdonald's. haha.

2008-10-14T19:06:00.002+08:00

ill leap backwards/
skip pebbles.
and run a different route.

to do list;

1. Sweets for a quick Kill
2. Feed the inhaler
3. Top up my "reviL"
4. Deal with time.

I think i really do need a holiday.
A long one. i mean like really really long one.
im thinking redang again.
anyone?
like so fucking loooong nvr go holiday larhzz!

anw,
dear mutha'fuckerrs,
ill be back sooon.
the old times again, one last time.
Locked and loaded, baby!

ps;
dont worry, i truly understand.
and ill be fine.
a very big thank you!
and for now,
dont think of this anymore.
exams first!

Sweet like fuck

2008-10-13T20:36:00.006+08:00

Im feeling pretty fcuk up now.

so fuck up, i could kill somebody.

temper temper. watch it!

oh well. *sigh =(

predictions,assumptions.

im wiping it crystal clear.

*SIGH

it tumbles down too deep, and every step deeper, its hurts even more.

no matter how hard it is. im still pulling it out.

im finding the quickest way to kill.

just like magic.

*pause.

the Liver and the Lungs.

i totally forgotten about the brain.

i should try,

over and over and over again.

im buying myself an express ticket to the end of the road.

shhh, quiet.

sugar, spice. im just being nice.

Here's my note.

FUCK YOU!

Flair Prac

2008-10-11T16:34:00.003+08:00

Flair Practice At Work

2008-10-11T15:33:00.003+08:00

It supposed to be a routine, after work, supper. A total of 9 bikes. Well, im still taking my practicals, so no choice i had to be a pillion. Upon reaching a traffic junction, Clement and his friend went off first. I knew they were goin to fast. It was a straight road. I was third behind them. The rest of them was far behind. It all happen so fast. I heard a loud "thump" but it was quite dark to see anything. Seconds after that, I saw his friend who went off with him earlier, stop his bike on the side and started running across the road. Thats went i saw clement on the ground. His bike was lying down quite a distant from him. We park our bike on the side and ran towards Clement. By then, Clement was already sitting up. And there was blood everywhere. I cannot describe the wound. I, myself, felt disgusted upon seeing his wound. His friend told us, that a car eventually came out of no where into their path. His friend shove to the right but Clement couldnt react fast and Crash. He front flip twice to the front, and landed on his knees.

Get well soon, clement. =) **

anw, congratulations Qal.
First Day, First Ticket. And 3 motherfcuking points. Kwang Kwang Kwang.
haha.

And Guys, NO MORE RACING PLEASE!
YOU FCUKING SCARE THE HELL OUT OF ME LAH!
__

I cant slp. i cant slp. i cant slp.

My eyes are so heavy, but i still cant slp.

i've clear thing out, and i felt so much better.
i seriously dont mind if things were not meant to be.
i understand.
Atleast, i expect things to be the way they were originally, from start.

im having the biggest regret.
if only i knew things were goin to be like this.
i wouldnt have told you.

=(

Tak bisa

2008-10-04T07:10:00.003+08:00

Telah jauh terpisah,diriku dan dirimu.
Dalam ruang dan waktu.
Sendiriku jalani sepiku, tanpa dirimu.
Resahku tanpa hadirmu.
Sungguh berat hatiku untuk merasakannya.

Salahku mencintai dirinya saat jauhku terpisah darimu
Dan hadirnya menyentuh hatiku,Untuk cintainya.
Hatiku pun inginkannya.
Hingga runtuh setiaku kepada dirimu.

Never mind these are horrid times. I can't let it bother me .

2008-10-02T18:46:00.003+08:00

Interestingly i found out, this year's "kuih raye" at my house taste so good, ya know.
hmm..i remember they didnt taste that good the few years back. I dont know.
Is it me? or is it the kuih?! haha.

Mr X1, thnks for tolerating me. = )
Much appreciated for everything.

Hari Raya

2008-10-01T23:10:00.002+08:00

im so not in the mood for raya.
i dont know why.

Selamat Hari Raya.

MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN. = )

you got something to tell me?

Flair

2008-09-30T21:32:00.001+08:00

Nicolas St. Jean

Bored

2008-09-30T20:35:00.003+08:00

i was so fucking bored. -_-

HAHA!

Pain - Jimmy Eat World.

2008-09-30T08:00:00.001+08:00

I don't feel the way I've ever felt, i know.
I'm gonna smile and not get worried. I try but it shows.

Anyone can make what I have built.
And better now,
Anyone can find the same white pills.
cause it takes my pain away.

It's a false sense of accomplishment. Every time I quit.
Anyone can see my every flaw. It isn't hard.
Anyone can say they're above this all.

It's a lie. A kiss with open eyes.
And she's not breathing back.
Never mind these are horrid times. I can't let it bother me .

Cripple the heart, the power of the soul

2008-09-27T16:48:00.004+08:00

I found you here.
Now please just stay for a while. I can move on with you around.

So how long did I expect love to outweigh ignorance?
By the look on your face I may have forced the scale to tip.

I'm not insane

So come on.
Tell me.
Is this the end?

off

2008-06-07T06:04:00.000+08:00

Off to LANGKAWI.
9th to 14th.
take good care all of you.
cheers

2008-05-24T07:58:00.002+08:00

Gi mampos ngan ini blog!

2008-04-14T03:28:00.002+08:00

A very big HELLO!

check the last posting. ( yes, i took that long to update! =] )

My internet's down, separating me from the cyber world.
So, im currently at city hall. In an internet cafe, updating my stuffs.
I thought it was way too long and this blog was rotting itself crying out for help.
hehe.

Yes, for your info. So much has happened. Like i said before, my time management is really fucking bad. It jus got better. My attachment starts tomorrow at 9am yet Im down here at city hall 3.30am. *sob

i miss transport home. i outta cash due to the redang trip yet i trade 10bucks to kill time. (i knw, im very stupid).
ah! who cares.

anyways, I found myself addicted to travelling after the Tioman trip. I felt a stronger love for the soft white sand and crystal clear blue sea. The snorkel trips. The boat rides.
its doesnt come easy you know. I look like keling pundek already lah!

Im still waiting for the pictures.
Ill post it a.s.a.p

So Redang was the best. Tioman was the second.
Lets see how phuket goes this june. * huge grin
anyone in?

alright takecare.!

to be continue
- Im tired lah!

Rat

2007-12-10T05:13:00.000+08:00

Nothing much has happen, only that i've realised my blog is getting rusty each day.
Seriously, I dont feel like blogging most of the time. Cause life to me is pretty boring.
Expect lesser updates from me.

I hate to talk about the Rat.
Rats dun talk. I knw. Ill catch it myself, and make em' squek.

How i wish he could opened his mouth and admit, as easy as how he opened his mouth to spread the stuffs. Ill warn first. Prepare for war. I wont stop til' i get his head down on the ground . So better hang the white flag before its too late cause its worth saving ur life, atleast.

Sometimes its always safer to keep between urself. You know, nobody else know. Whether its a secret or u feel like expressing urself on someone. Just basically anything! If only everyone understand what im basically talking about. I know, im basically filled with bullshit most of the time but atleast i knw., Im always safe. Why not u, urself, try and be safe from the people around u. Make it only friends and no enemies. Learn the words respect and accept. I could be babbling here the whole day on this. There's just too much things to say. Ill finish it right about here. U guys know what to do.

Whats the point of focusing too much on stuffs ?
ill make myself happy, enjoy puas2 giler ba-bang!
lagik gerek beb!

ill end here ok guys.
i will never forget the rat.
he knows im coming for him.. *grin

Sufi

2007-11-11T17:20:00.000+08:00

Indochine's Alfresco Staffs had their chalet from 5th to 9th. Aloha Loyang. I had a really good time there. Im still waiting for the pictures. for now, Ill be away for just a short while. Ill be right back.

Hari Raya Outing '07

2007-11-03T16:14:00.000+08:00

Hari Raya Outing '07 = )

HARI RAYA

2007-10-16T11:59:00.000+08:00

To be honest, im pretty lazy to update this blog of mine.
= )
anyways, Selamat Hari Raya everyone.
and erm, Im sorry for all my wrong-doings, if there's any in a way or so, please forgive me.

you know, to my surprise. This hari raya, i've got green packets! yay yay! = )
haha. I totally thought i wont be getting any this year since im already so old. I even thought of extorting some from my brothers. hhahaha. Nah...

One thing i realised this year, We didnt take Photos. I mean as in my Family la.
Feel so weird. Like last year, my gums were so dry, smilling for the camera. haha.
yea, maybe ill get a few pics soon as we go visiting again.

end here ok guys.
see ya! happy hari raya!

SCHOOLING during RAYA sucks big time.

2007-09-27T04:11:00.000+08:00

Zack's got new phone. I took this picture with his phone. = )

oh man, i seriously dunnoe what to blog.
= )
ill be back soon.

Love

2007-09-22T05:45:00.000+08:00

yea, life's pretty boring sometimes. I seriously dont knw about what to blog about. Everyday' s the same. You wake up, u get to work. After work, get myself the nicest food for saur. Then u get back to slp. I havent even got the time to tidy up my room. yes! in case u're wandering, my room is really a mess. = ) hmm, Actually, cant blame that i really got no time , i tink im jus pretty much lazy. zZz

I kinda miss the School routine. its much better than now.and... of cos!! the school people..

holiday's boring!
"when are u guys goin out?!! im stucked with this bloody bored routine..!!"

speaking of school, Im actually afraid of my results. I seriously dunnoe how i fair. For now, i just hope the least, to pass.

ah..!! heck with it..

i tink im turning in to my soft-comfy-bed now. my head's becoming heavier and heavier..
good nites!

oh! and errm, one more thing, ignore the post few days back, the one i vent my anger on. I wasnt in the right mood at that time. Sorry guys, you know im all love. haha. its jus that sometimes, ppl jus love to get on my nerves, ya know? yeah.. jus forget that stuff. wicked.

love... ppl!!

aww man... when am i gonna get my license....

2007-09-19T08:06:00.000+08:00

Enough said, I'm really disappointed in you!!

2007-09-18T05:46:00.000+08:00

The world's got a funny way of turning round on you.

Betray, you're not gonna be willing to change.
But it doesn't seem likely to fade.

I can't seem to understand it, how you've turned out to be so cold.

yeah, i kinda like you.. u knw..?

Short curly dick face

2007-09-16T07:17:00.000+08:00

Come on! u dick, u been on my fucking nerves for as long as i can remember.

Please learn to help others.
Please dont do things just for yourself.

Fine,I shall not brag about it, okays?!
everything ends here.
but..

please fucking change lah babi!

and pls, dont fuck around with me.
i swear ill give "a hand" to remember.

End of Examinations

2007-09-13T01:07:00.000+08:00

EXAMS ARE OVER!!
The weight is finally off my shoulders. Right On time, Fasting month has arrived.
SLMAT BERPUASE EVERYONE!
= )

YEAH YEAH.

Suddenly, im in the mood to be good.
Just like sugar, you're sweeter..

Pendudok Pondok Dragon; Haha, guys. I was in a really bad mood today. So many things were in my head. I wanna apologise for venting my anger towards u guys. Im really sorry. I felt the guilt, the smile u guys brought up although u guys had really tough time on me. I believe, u guys are the best. = ) Meet up during fasting month okays. Take good care.
=)

BFD OUT

2007-09-11T00:34:00.000+08:00

BUSINESS FUNDAMENTALS OUT!!

One more to go.
Lets FUCKING rock the way to HOLIDAYS!!

Aidil

2007-09-01T16:31:00.000+08:00

I was still slping at 1pm when my phone rang. I picked it up, Shal told me about Aidil's sudden and much to early pass.
I was really shocked.
Caught me by surprised.

He crashed on his bike.
Got hit by a Sand truck.

The driver ran off with his Wallet and Handphone.

I went straight down to his house to send my final farewell.
Met With the rest.

Im sorry Aidil.
My condolences.

i jus got back home from his house.
Im not really in the mood to blog about it.

ill shall end here.
im off to work.

one more thing,
Please Ride safely...

2007-08-30T20:41:00.000+08:00

(Shh, quiet, you might piss somebody off..)
Like me motherfucker! you’ve been at it for too long.

Well where I'm from we have a special salute waved high in the air towards all those pompous assholes who spend their days pointing fingers.

Fuck you...

Excuse the obscene.
Ignore the untrue.

MARINA!

2007-08-29T23:04:00.000+08:00

HALOOOOOOOO!

I had my ISS test today. Well, its was "ok" lah. I agree to what hafiz said, " its very easy actually if u study giler-babi." haha. True, i could say its easy, only that i did not put in enough effort. Im doubting, i would fail that paper. yeap. i deserve it..

Well, after that. I was told to report at Marina for the IRON MAN thing. Was quite blur about it, i was told that a briefing would be held. So met Hafiz, Gabriel, Reezal, and Fart and took the train down to Marina.

We end up packing up some sort of competitors numbers and goody bags for the actual day.
Tiring indeed, my hands were tired. And the long sit on the floor, causes a back strain.

So we finished up the last work and went for a break..
the scenery was awesome.
so we took some pictures..

Well, i met this few kittens.. Simply very very cute.
i wanna take it home. but the mother was very fierce. so too bad la.

yeap. im logging off..
tired la.
gd bye!

i found you

2007-08-28T01:51:00.000+08:00

I found you here, now please just stay for a while I can move on with you around.

Thailand

2007-08-19T08:17:00.001+08:00

in the picture;
Nal, Fie, Fique and Dan.
After work.
Myself with that pathetic new hairstyle. Almost cried at the barber. He cut my hair till it was so bloody short!.

Uncle Han approach again at work,
" Yes, this is better, much handsome.. neat and tidy, vry good!!"
Sufi smiled and nodded, sufi then turned around, whisper softly " handsome kebai-bai..."
Fcuk.
%$#@! argh!!!!

fuck it. dun talk about it already
and yes ladies and gentlemen.
yet again, ive jus reached home from work.
im still irritated by my blocked nose.. and......
i cant wait for school to start. working sucks..sometimes.
atleast today went smooth but tiring.
13k today! wohoo..

and yes im very bloody tired already.
ill stop here.
takecare..

"i went to thailand today. and i met an moah!"

Work

2007-08-18T05:35:00.001+08:00

That pathetic picture was taken at work during my breaktime outside ARENA.
and yes! i just got back from work.
Wasnt really in the mood when i first arrive.
Soon, i found out there were also others who are as sick as me.
haha, yup
Well, Denise's voice is much worse than me. atleast..
He's sound like a transervite.
"hi! baby!"
hahahahaha..

Well, today work was fun! relaxing although we were quite busy.
i like the music today, eye candy twins made the bar full.
Everything went smooth.
thank god.

Uncle han came to me at work.
Uncle han said, " Cut ur Hair! "
Sufi smiled and nod.
Uncle han said again, " Jango!! " and walk away.
Sufi drop his jaw.

what on earth is a jango sia....!!
Jango??!! Nver encounter such word before..
Uncle han is full of nonsence ah..

..................
wait..
again, im thinking of denise voice.
hahahahaha.

alrite!! i think i better get to slp now.
6am in the morning already!

tata-titi-tutu.

*im really irritated by my blocked nose..

2007-08-17T15:45:00.000+08:00

yea, i knw. ive not been updating.
i realised this blog of mine is almost one month rusty.
my apologies. seriously, i wasnt really in the mood to blog.
anyways,

Today is Friday and usually ill have my business fundamentals and my office applications.
But there was no BFD for today so school starts at 11am for OFA.
But i didnt went to sch today.
Im sick. i woke up at 9am.
My throat feels like its peircing everytime i swallow something.
My head was spinning and i felt like i have to balance myself everytime i walk.
Forced the pills down my throat and decided to get back to slp.

THE BLOODY BAD NEWS IS...
I have work today.
I hate work!
especially when im feeling like this..
ah, freak hell..
i have to speak to customers with my deep ghoulish voice..
and time is so fucking fast, i wanna relax more but now its already 4!

i tink i shallnt blabber on anymore.
im really in no mood.
ill update a.s.a.p again.
bye.

2007-07-20T00:32:00.000+08:00

So i woke up late yet again today.
When for BFD and was fully fresh!
= )

Schools getting much more fun this days.
My classmates are getting from fun to the ultimate fun everyday.
And we recently received our uniforms.
and finally!!

im slpy ah!
no mood to blog.
be back some other day, cheers!

littlest things.

2007-07-05T04:09:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I find myself sitting back and reminiscing.
Especially when I have to watch other people kissing.

Sometimes I wish we could just pretend.
Even for just a second.

The littlest things that take me there.
I know it sounds lame but it’s so true.
I know it’s not right but it seems unfair.
That thing’s are reminding me of you.

Dreams of when we had just started things.
Dreams of you and me.
It seems, That I can’t shake those memories.
I wonder if you have the same dreams too.

Riding dirty!

2007-06-30T07:01:00.000+08:00

alrite!
back.

Sorry, i t0ok some time off the list. Been attending to stuffs.
yeap, im pretty worn out. but its alrite, things are better now.
most importantly.
im back!
ole ole ah ah!
=)

anyways,
i found out riding 90km/h issnt as fast as i thought it was! = 0
"lembab mcm sotong" ( Slow like squid )
i wan fast fast!
like 120km/h

AND...

i found out 7 is a bloody lucky number!
Not really based totally on luck but i tink its more like making my skills better.
= )
hahahahaha.
jus kidding.
serious speaking.
it is a lucky no..

and the bad news.
my RTT's 2 fucking months away.
2 bloody fucking months.
Argh!!

2months, slack it out on school.
i miss school btw.

im tired of work.

fuck it la.
im tired.
ill be back again.
till den..
Vr00oom!

oh! and erm..
"Catch me if u can sucker!!"
ho seh liao ah..

=)

dirtike

2007-06-15T18:29:00.000+08:00

So im finally 18 huh?!

im suddenly all excited about dirtbikes..
i wanna have a dirtbike just like..

TRAVIS PASTRANA

BDAY

2007-06-10T03:21:00.000+08:00

Holla holla!!

HELL YEAH!!!

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY !!!

A Big Thank you to all!

Thk you everyone for all tat birthday wishes. I appreciate it all alot! = )

hur hur! im 18 years of Age,

BRING IT ON!

My all

2007-06-06T01:28:00.002+08:00

hey guys,
I'm sorry for not updating recently.
Im been busy as always.
Reach home late at night and ill be snoozing away.

I reached School at 10am jus now, instead of 8am.
I skipped my BFD Lesson cause i intend to study for my ISS ( Integrated Sports Science) practical test.

I couldnt find the time yesterday!

I was worried i couldnt do well.
Rather than just know nothing, i targeted to at least know something.

So, the test went well.
im glad i could answer most of the questions.
although there's a few questions that i went blank on, but i didnt mind.
im glad. i know most of it.

Felt really relieved.

So, thats it.
Lets forget school for now.

Read Hafiz's Blog just now,
"I miss being loved by someone special.."
Dont worry lah fiz, We'll each get out targets soon...
Mine's the snoopy.

Ill quit pretending.
Seriously, I kinda felt like him.
Deep inside, i know myself.
i miss someone.
/\
/\ / \ /\
....................../ \..../ \ ............/ \ /\.........................................
\/ \/

I think end here,
cause i dont intend to illustrate more...
anyway, im slpy.
good nite.

im speaking out at random,
i tink, its time for an honesty.
im dying to breathe u in again..

My all

2007-06-06T01:28:00.001+08:00

hey guys,
I'm sorry for not updating recently.
Im been busy as always.
Reach home at late night and ill be snoozing away.

I reached School at 10am jus now, instead of 8am.
I skipped my BFD Lesson cause i intend to study for my ISS ( Integrated Sports Science) practical test.

I couldnt find the time yesterday!

I was worried i couldnt do well.
Rather than just know nothing, i targeted to at least know something.

So, the test went well.
im glad i could answer most of the questions.
although there's a few questions that i went blank on, but i didnt mind.
im glad. i know most of it.

Felt really relieved.

So, thats it.
Lets forget school for now.

Read Hafiz's Blog just now,
"I miss being loved by someone special.."
Dont worry lah fiz, We'll each get out targets soon...
Mine's the snoopy.

Ill quit pretending.
Seriously, I kinda felt like him.
Deep inside, i know myself.
i miss someone.

I end here,
dont want to illustrate more..

im speaking out at random,
i tink, its time for an honesty.
im dying to breathe u in again..

FINAL DAY VOLLEY

2007-05-28T01:01:00.000+08:00

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Awww..

that marks the end of the Volleyball tournament.
believe me..
i wanted more!

I was dissapointed the final match ended so fast.
Brazil and China.
That match was really exciting.
Brazilians won! although i wanted china to. aww..

There were only 2 sets.
i wanted a 3rd set.

Swatch FIVB Volleyball tournament.
i will miss it.

im still waiting for my photos.

and i shall post it here..

so till i get my photos.

so im off.
im tired.

see ya!~

2007-05-27T01:04:00.000+08:00

Women's Volleyball tournament this week is hell of fun.

im got myself on tv too. *smiles

"Can you spot me?"

The beach party, the luge race.

Im currently having a time of my life this week, enjoying myself to the fullest.

and erm... im getting darker again..
*#$@^!

the sweat was worth it.

http://www.fivb.org/EN/BeachVolleyball/Competitions/WorldTour/2007/beach_page.asp?pg=PIC&TRN=WSEN2007&sm=123

check out this link.

This is me.

2007-05-18T00:57:00.000+08:00

Hmm, sometimes...

ur werds, can really struck me hard.

i wish to express myself.

So i start to think.
I know, u guys are motivating me. But Im sure there's a better way.
Reminding me of the past, telling me im no good.
"Remember that time when you were at........."
I know! i know!
i suck at it really bad, ryte?

i appreciate u guys motivating me.

But for this time,
I want to be myself.
I want to make my own choices,
Believe me.
Im goddamn bloody sure, know what i want and i know what i dont want.

I really feel lazy to handle such things.
i dont feel the need to have, i dont feel the rush.

Its what i feel inside that matters.
its not the practice and all that things.

Motivation doesnt comes with critiscing.
im searching for my confidence.
thks for demoralising me.

Women's FIBV beach open in Sentosa Singapore 23/o5/o7 to 27/o5/o7

2007-05-16T20:26:00.000+08:00

Quick Update!!

Sports Management Students will be involved in the coming,

"Women's FIBV beach open in Sentosa,Singapore"

23/o5/o7 to 27/o5/o7

Im excited about it!!
I cant wait!

Game on.

2007-05-09T00:05:00.000+08:00

I'M BACK .

Alright, straight to the few things i need to talk about.

"I REALLY NEED TO GET A HOLD OF MYSELF"
Every single human being needs to be responsible.
and im seriously not.

i've realised i've taken too many things lightly and not seriously, that in the end, i lose hold.
Irresponsible i know i am, but i intend not to know or to even care.
and i've realised, i dont have the confident that i used to have before.
everything, jus name it, i suck at it.

i dont know.
im trying hard to change my mindset.
Im Trying really hard to find the solution, trying to get things really organise for myself, So that things would go smoothly.
COME ON!
i know i can.
just give me the time.

for you, i really need to straighten up with. seriously, im not ready.
For love, for me is too hard to handle for now.
I myself isnt properly organised and yet to have another person in my life is already way too much. I hope you understand.

i know, you'll do great.

im too tired. i shall do things slowly from now.
i know what i want and i will take control

you'll see..

updating is tiring

2007-05-03T00:23:00.000+08:00

Blah Blah Blah.

FUCK THE BFD TEST TOMORROW.

Im so tired, Nothing goes into my head.
so im currently resting. and ill get back to it as-slow-as-possible
haha.

Ass, woke up late jus now although its a 1.30 class.
catch the cab.
waste money again.
now my money is getting so bloody-patheticly lesser day by day.

NABEI CHEE BYE!

ok!
Seriously, i need to be a little bit responsible.
*nod head
im currently all messed up la sia.
*smack head

i need a good "WAKE UP"!

I need to learn to manage well with my money and time and for everything else also.
waking up early in the morning is already a BIG fuckin' problem for me.

i think i shall do it bit by bit.
wish me luck den.

*yawn
better get back to the books.
my eyes are killing me.
*BIG YAWN

WAIT!

i think,
i smell a rat sneaking around my blog.
hmm..

ah! pegi mampos.

good nite honeys!

CLERK

2007-04-27T00:45:00.000+08:00

Hur hur.

alrite. i dunnoe. i tink i like that clerk.

Wohoooo.
Im sure alot of guys had tried to get her.
i dunnoe. i feel like approaching her.
: )

i cant tell u whu..
my classmates reading my blog would sure wan to check it out.
hehe. no way man~!!

we'll see...

IM FEELING...
HIPPY!!!

I overslept and went shopping. *shakes head

2007-04-26T01:41:00.000+08:00

I woke up at bloody 2.30pm.
i realised no one actually woke me up.
I was so tired.
I text msg Aidil and told him i overslept and wont be coming to school.
he told me i could still make it to class cause there's no PIE lesson and they are currently having a break.
So the next lesson would be ISS which starts at 3pm and by the time i knw, its already 2.45pm.
How on earth can i make it to class in 15mins?

I insisted on watching Manutd against AcMilan last night despite being so tired after soccer match that i had earlier on.
and i've paid the price.

I woke up and didnt notice it was 2.30pm. i thought it was still 9am or something.

To UPo7o4A : "Im sorry i couldnt make it for Soccer as promised.I overslept. I sincerely apologize to you guys."

Anyways, i felt guilty to the guys in my class.
i had noting to do at home
and so i started revising.

A few Hours later, Rul called.
and we decided to go out to town.
and so, met him n nal at City Hall MRT and off we go.

Went shopping
wohooooo~

end up Buying a pair of LEVI's jeans.

and went to TOPman's .

Went into the fitting room to try a few stuffs.
and walk off out of the store wif noting. hahahaha.

nah.. we were jus planning what to buy next time.
im like so bloated.
i feel so bloody slpy.

off to bed.
sayonara babes!

S-e-kolah

2007-04-23T00:37:00.000+08:00

ok ppl.
back to update.

been very busy lah.
could hardly find the time to grab hold of the computer.

yes
and So.
One and a half year of "free-time" and finally..
im starting school.
awkward indeed!

waking up early in the morning?
oh damn.
*kick

So first week of school is over.
Everything seems ok.

BUT!
School is still school.
Boring as ever.

NEW FRIENDS?
hell yeah.

Hot Babes?
erm. not really.
Damn!
*swing arm.

yup!

fullstop.

end here la.
tmrw schools starts at 8.
nabei chee bye.

Sheeess

2007-04-03T09:55:00.000+08:00

JUS GOT BACK HOME! and its bloody 10am.
very tiring.

Met the guys after work. Relax. and had a talk. Suddenly "Sheesha" came to our mind and all at the very last minute. We decided to go down toArab street for "sheesha".

Call up the rest of the crew and waited for them after they finish work.
we reached the area at around 2a.m

MIRUL

HAIQAL was also there.

and thats me, dun mind the "drug-addict" look.

and this is DENISE.

DRAGON!

and what an experience. really enjoyed ourselfs. pretty worn-out. obviously, im pretty tired enough that i let the pictures do the ranting. so i shall end here, enuff said. i need to take my nap. My eyes are like so heavy...* yawn. Slp tight everyone.

quick update!

2007-03-30T07:04:00.000+08:00

QUICK UPDATE.

1. NSSL - National Street Soccer League
Here i come!

2. Nike Mercurial Vapour Boots!
Must have!

3. Save Money.

4. I dun like to be made like a fool.
So dun fool me.
ill fuck u!

and by the way. Holly Valance : ) i loike!!

Thrill ride

2007-03-29T06:17:00.000+08:00

ok. update.

So, didnt werk for the last few days. But still very busy, went for registrating thing at ITE simei. I went on the last day, and almost all the uniform were out of stock. cb.

" The Clerk at the Admin Office. The Woman in her 20s i tink? Is Very Pretty!!"
im dead serious.
You can fell for her in jus a glance.
So cant wait for school to start!! hahahaha~

Ton the whole nite jus now at Punggol. Had the whole freaking nite, wif Qal, Nal, Mirul and Boy. We are so free, That we decided to climb up to the top carpark.
ALL THE WAY TO THE TOP!

VERY THRILLING.

CHECK OUT THE VIEW!!

its different at the top. I kinda felt as if im off balance most of the time. Very dangerous, imagine urself slipping off the edge. And that would be a different story.

and..
we had "Itchy hands".
Fetish for bikes.

Every bike we saw, is like Heaven..
hahahha.

Boy with the Honda Fireblade.

The bike is too big for him, but too small for me.
hahaha.

Now, that fits very well.

what a nite.

Havent do

2007-03-24T03:21:00.000+08:00

im so tired. its 3.20am and i jus got back from work. Tmrw, i'll have to wake up early cause i was there's training at work at 3pm. Tiring.

Indochine had their 2nd aniversary yesterday. There's free-flow of drinks, so there's a few bloody idiots who got drunk. Even a Maintanance Crew got drunk and was mumbling something about nobody give a fuck about him although he's been working 3days straight. Haha. I've been working 5days straight and im not complaining. hahaha. Stupid fella, im the one who needs to sent him to the taxi stand. He was so bloody heavy, and i had to carry him to the taxi stand which seems like a walk across China.

i need some time off. SERIOUSLY!
Because i've plan to do some stuffs.
Like...

1. Go Ice-skating.
2. Hit the nightspots.
3. Go to Siloso Beach cause i love the SUN!
4. Have Barbeque or Chalet and stay overnight.
5. Go Jamming again. : (
6. Go Overseas for a Vacation, 1 week the max.

Jus SOME of the stuffs i wanna do.

Jus seems i cant even have time for one.

School is starting!! and im panicking. Cause i havent bought my uniform and pay for the course fee. fuck.

AND..
I havent deffered my NS. MATI OH~
if i get call-up. Sure go commit suicide.

Right now, i've got A FUCKING LONG CHAIN of "havent solve" stuffs.
So, i tink i better do something soon.
i hope so..

HOUSE of ASS

2007-03-17T10:07:00.000+08:00

I rather WORK.
Although its tiring, but i very much prefer it than being at home which is killing me ryte now.

*sigh

ANG MOH

2007-03-16T06:43:00.000+08:00

jus got back from work and decided to update!
ok, its been quite some time since i've touch my guitar. and yes, i've really turned rusty on it. "My fingers are like very the robotic already u knw!". haha.

u knw.

I've realised that, ANG-MOHs are like Clowns.

Onli jus now, i was taking a break at around 12am at work and this few DRUNK Aussies ( i recognise thru their accent or perhaps they're britsh, i dunnoe ) were behaving like idiots. Seriously, it was really funny. One of those guys, this bald-headed freak went over to the taxi stand and took a cab, and roll on the window screen and called-out to his frens who was like also drunk, One of his frens standing near the cab was like, " HEI LOOK, ROBBIE WILLIAMS!!" and went over and opened the door of the cab while it was about to take off and Jumped in. The cab came to a sudden stop when he open the door and took off and den stop again. That same guy who open the door of the cab den suddenly came out rolling on the ground. After that, the cab took off. That guy on the floor then stood up and shout to the rest of the group, " oh ok! it isnt robbie williams! i think its Brad Pitt."i was laughing at them, and they were like jus a few steps in front of me. Then another one of them came to me and said, " where did that taxi go? " , i jus smiled and he started to sing dunnoe wad song, "NA NA NA NA NA..." and den he flag a cab and he was like talking to tat cab ( not the driver of the cab, THE CAB itself! ) and said, " Hei you!, Follow that cab ( pointing to the opposite direction of the earlier cab that took off)and the rest jumped in and off they go. .." i was like " HAHAHAHAHAHHA "

There was this time,i almost lost my phone at work. At that time,I tried calling like 20times and finally this british-accent guy pick up the call. So i met him and he gave me back my phone and i asked him where did he found it. He said, " nah, i jus felt a vibration in my thighs and found this phone.." i was like really meh?
u think we singaporeans are so STUPID!?
of cos i didnt say that la..
but really...
How can my phone end up in his pocket jus like tat? "MAGIC AH?"

AIYO!

Jus now, i screwed up at work. I was supposed to send this food to this customer at table 103, and i made a mistake sending it to 104. I actually ask that "ang-moh" customer first before laying that food down on the table. I asked, " Excuse me ma'am, Lemon-grass Beef?" and she replied, " yes!". Then after i took a few steps, she called me back. She put her index finger below her lips as she said, " Sorry, but i dont think i ordered this.." -_- . So i took the order back to the kitchen and " kena fuck by my supervisor" .

On Monday there was this runaway bill at work. In case u dont knw, runaway bill is dining in and running away without paying. It was PERFECTLY plan. Like a perfect bank roberry. $500+ worth. Not a single staff notice that group of "ang-moh" customers had left. Luckily, i wasnt station there when it occured. I think they've been there before and like taken note of the timing and all that stuff, u knw. We only realise when my supervisor went to check whichever table had not yet paid. Everyone was like " AIK?! GO ALREADY AH?! "

rebel or not to?

2007-03-11T05:16:00.000+08:00

when i go astray, he pulls my collar.
he pulls me back to my home.

My home, is like my cage.
he puts a limit in me.
and i cant seem to roam.

now,
its like im swallowing from him and throwing it back to the rest.
and the rest suffers the most.

so u tell me,
issit time for me to rebel..?

life

2007-03-07T10:05:00.000+08:00

I will kill you.

so dun fuck wif me.

On my own.

2007-03-06T01:51:00.000+08:00

What i dream i had.

i really felt a strong sense of guilt, with a little bit of confusion.
But very much touched my heart.

I jus cant fall back to slp thinking of it.
thats why i ended up here.
Im a little bit confused, i wonder if meant something.
i dunnoe.

Gathering 2007

2007-03-05T05:26:00.000+08:00

Had a gathering for graduates of Punggol Sec malay pupils few days back. An Applause for the ppl who made it happened. *applaused. It was held at Pasir Ris beach.

Had a really good time.
We all shared Stories and update ourselfs on what we are currently doing ryte now. Most of us were cery much still the same. The good thing i noticed is that although some of us didnt knw each other very well during schooling days, it doesnt seem to be a problem becaus everyone could bond with each other quite well. Thats very good. So, i hope such gathering should be held once in awhile.

Hmm, so now ill let the pictures do the talking.

So later on, almost everyone went home. Left with Naj, Nadia, Su, Wani, Mirul and Me.
So we went on for cycling at night

Wani and Su didnt wan to go into the swamp so they didnt follow us.

i wasnt in this picture cause im the one taking this picture.

So im looking forward to the next one.

end here.
adioz!

Back to update.

2007-03-03T07:36:00.000+08:00

sorry, i've been very busy lately.

Been working for the last few days. It's been jus fine. A little bit tiring.

nothing much to say.

oh! and yes, to that faggot whose-been-always-trying-to-side-someone-who-spoon-food-him-wif-ciggarettes-and-end-up-backstabbing-the-others-and-he-doesnt-care. U hate it when ppl criticise u, but please dun be stubborn and look at the mirror urself. i dun wan to hightlight more things, cos u've got the brains to look at it urself. think wisely.

im lazy to write more, maybe next time. my head`s spinning thinking of alot of other stuffs. fcuk it. gtg.

Band?!

2007-02-25T00:13:00.000+08:00

WHERE THE FUCK IS THE BAND GO?

ARGH~!!!

i thank god for everything.

2007-02-23T20:15:00.000+08:00

And i Finally found something good to eat up my slping disorder.

thank god.

One more, and its forever.

2007-02-23T10:08:00.000+08:00

to boy,
im very sorry.
i would try my very best to help u.

argh!
im stress.

Someone be my punching bag please..

i really feel like punching.

i never wanted any body more then i wanted you

2007-02-23T10:04:00.000+08:00

Obsession, take another look.
Remember, every debt you took.
Decide, you be with me
Or give up - i thought you want to be free

i never wanted any body more then i wanted you.

Boy Malam

2007-02-22T00:19:00.000+08:00

TODAY.
went to meet Boy.
went to raffles city to take care of some business.
and went off to dhoby ghaut for LAN GAMING.
haha.

Boy, was th EAST area champion for Counter-Strike few years back.
Almost made it in for World Cyber Games.
i couldnt believe it at first.
that bespectable guy really is.

Boy on the Right.

and today, i defeated the east area champion.
Hell yeah!

im gonna slp wif a smile across my face.
haha.

im off.
tired.
so ill end here.
takecare.

Boredom

2007-02-20T11:23:00.000+08:00

im bored.
so bored.

very the bored.

im hungry.
i wan a Pizza.
anyone?

Cheese, Pepperoni, Mushrooms and more cheese.
thks!
send it over.

6 in the morning

2007-02-17T06:17:00.000+08:00

I cant slp, cause i've slp in the afternoon i guess. i kinda dose off at 2am jus now. but woke up at 5.30am. Jus in time for "that 70's show".

that 70's show ROCKS! \m/

i cant slp so intend to watch tv, but my father took the remote in an attempt to save electricity. He thought i've been eating up the electricity as he thought the tv was on for the whole day. He didnt see, the tv was turned on every night at around 9pm. He went home at 11pm and would thought the tv was already on since daylight. It buggin' me. I spend the most time at home so im the best suitable suspect for anything tats wrong. He forbids me to go out cause he thought i ate his money for going out. Now he controls the family income instead of my mum. And mum has always had a shortage of money, so she'll ask from me. Now my acc. has a big fat two-zero cents left. *thumbs up. You cant blame my mum, my father controls the money.

So now i have no money, hmmm... so ill stay at home instead. ryte?!

BUT....

lets think of it this way, if i stay at home
I DUNNOE WHAT THE FUCK I CAN DO!!

The Television he controls, the computer he controls.

darn!

I CANT WAIT FOR SCHOOL TO START! and FIND A FUCKING JOB!
and den COLLECT MONEY. SCRAM out of his Face.

anyway.
To Ms Ismawanty;
i understand that u had problems jus like me. Life`s like tat so ''Chill~!'', be strong. Parents they are like that sometimes. Its ok. After school life is like that, turning to an adult. So its sort of a learning journey. For what we face now could be very little of what lies ahead in the future. So if u handle it well now, and it would be no surprise if you made it well in the future! ;) im always here if u need anyting. take good care.

i gotta ppl. take good care!

blah blah blah..

2007-02-16T08:53:00.000+08:00

well well well.

i guess im back. A new Computer. Horray~! haha. It so early in the morning ryte now and its the onli freaking time i get to used the com. This blog is still under-construction. Lost the old skin.

Im having problems with my phone, Cant put in pictures into this com. Dunnoe why, Sorry ppl, as soon as i solve this problem, i shall upload pics.

well well well.
o lvls results.
i've paid the price.

im going ITE. isk isk isk.
wasted ryte? *shake head
Nvm seen my parents so furious before. BEST~!
they left my ears ringing for few days. haha.

nvm. gotta move ahead. Just regretting itsnt going to get me no where.
MOVE ALONG.
yeah beb.

i gtg. update soon.

Update

2007-02-15T19:44:00.000+08:00

Im back.
got a new com.
ill update soon.
too busy lately.

ill be back soon

maths papers sucks lah~

2006-11-06T13:06:00.000+08:00

ok, maths paper.
easy to say..
ITE! here i come.
fullstop.

deep shit im in.
useless to say.
its over.

hmm.
im having a bad time werking.

werking sucks.
big time!

stupid ppl im werking with.
they'll shoot you behind ur back.
and some even shoot you for no reason.
muthafuckers!
everything i do is wrong.

ah~! heck care la.
anyway.

i really miss jamming with my band.
where're u guys?!!
when the next session.

end here.
next victim please...

Time says to update

2006-10-16T08:07:00.000+08:00

update lah!

Boring, boring.
i may used to be busy, but i think im much more busy now.
seriously.
im desperate to find time for last min revisons.
nvr been busier in my life before.
im tired.
i need a break.
i swear when everything's fine, ill go on a holiday.

my guitar's getting rustier each day,
havent touch it for some time,
quite a long time, i guess.
im itching up.

hari raya`s coming.
when shooping few days back.
alone.
dad's got work.
mum got something to do at home.
my brother got home late from sch.
so i went alone.
ok lah.
total money spend; 250bucks.
nice ah.
dunnoe how im going survive this few weeks.

i tink, ill end here.
enuff blabbering.
i gtg.

takecare everyone!

Update

2006-10-10T07:51:00.000+08:00

So its been so freakin long since ive update.
very sorry!
very busy lah!

im now updating while im in sch.
my lessons start at 9am today,
but im extra early.
so decided to update.
this blog is getting all dusty i see.

o's getting nearer, im feelin the heat.
but actually, seriouslt speaking, i dun feel confident this time round.
i got a feeling im jus goin to screw up like the last time.
i kept thinking, i cant fail this time.
but i knw, most probly,
im goin to.

oh yeah,
theres this JC girl from the bustop where ill b taking 965 every morning,
used to look at me one kind.
So yesterday, i figure out that its my turn to stare at her.
haha.
while in the bus, she turn her head towards me,
saw me staring at her. she gave her "shy" look and turn away. bahaha.
so today, i saw her in the bus.
she not staring at me anymore.
i guess she`s shy,
haha.
one more thing,
shes not bad looking though.
hhehe.
btw, im not a prevert ok.

end here,

selamat berpuase semue!

So.

2006-09-05T15:16:00.000+08:00

My computer is cocked-up. yeah!
so u wont be seeing in online on msn most of the time.
unless im in sch or so la..

Yesterday, went to JR`s house.
He`s got a drum-set at home.best!
JR`s drumming, quite good lei.
haha. "JR! dun pretend to b lousy ah~!!"

you knw,
i cant slp at night.
i tink i go slp disorder or something.
ill slp at 4-5am, even though im bloody tired.
ill usually watch tv till late,
and my father has a problem with tat,
" Dont Waste my electrical Bill!! go to slp!!"
he'll shout and slam the freakin` door.
i have to force myslef to slp.
Fcuk!

i watch the news yesterday.
Steve Irwin is gone.
i thought it was a joke.
but den, he's really gone!
darn, i love to watch him on "animal planet"
no more croc hunter.

end here.
blog on soon.
takecare.

Update

2006-08-19T08:05:00.000+08:00

ever heared of Sorrow behind the smile?

Life sucks issnt it?

woow

2006-08-15T01:33:00.000+08:00

well.
i had a dream few days ago.

it was so real, that i could really felt her hair.
i could see my own reflections in the mirror,
and the smile, the whispers.

i really tot it was all real.
until i woke up.
i realised it was jus a dream.
and sat down pondering.
if onli it was reality.

but den.
i knw. the true fact is,
it could never b reality.

blast~!!

issit time to update?

2006-08-06T15:59:00.000+08:00

ah. back. and dunnoe what to update.

well.
yesterday when to see the FIREWORKS at esplanade.
but we forgotten to bring along our cameras. haa.
im telling u guys it was very romantic if u were to be sitting there watching the fireworks with ur girlfren or so.
haha.

well for me.
im single ryte?
so i imagine myself wif GAYLE NERVA beside me. HAHAHAHAHAH!!

yeah.

check her out.

btw, cant b blame tat she got voted out. her performance was terrible.

Gayle Nerva - Leave (Get out)

oh well.
nvm gayle.
cheer up.
ill bring u to the fireworks next year.
hahaha~

i am.

2006-07-20T22:18:00.000+08:00

im.

so.

bloody.

dunnoe-how-to-describe-what-im-feeling-ryte-now.

i cant b standing ryte here forever.

still waiting for the sky to drop

.

So - So - and so...

2006-07-14T13:35:00.000+08:00

whenever im boredom comes.
ill ly down on my bed stare at the ceiling. and ill start to think, the past would always comes to life.

ill get stucked wif an empty feeling inside

ill jus stare and stare at the ceiling.
while my mind will be on its own rewinding itself.

Can Someone pls invent a machine or something where ppl could jus delete their past, and forgetting everyting,
sort like that movie called, "Paycheck"
u knw?

So it'll b much easier.
faster.
and doestnt even hurt.

Now.
i see a dead end.
i see no way to get past through that dead end.
and i "havent" find my path to go back.

if onli it was that easy finding my way back to where i was before.

simple to say. its difficult to achive.
so how long more can i lie to myself..
knwing that it could nvr have happen again i guess.

I hope i meet the light at the end of the tunnel soon.
cos im already tired of running to nowhere.

My dad.

2006-07-11T02:12:00.000+08:00

hmm.
My relationship with my father has always been very bad.
But ive realised, so far. its been getting better each day.

Suddenly,on fine day at home,he came by to me and ask, "Hey, tell me what time the italy and france start so i can accompany u to watch."

i went, " 1.50am. U're sure u wanna watch? U're not werking tmrw?"

he said, " Im goin to werk late tmrw."

i said, " ok den, grab a coke."

So we watched late night soccer together. Felt quite awkward. But he was fun.
he'll question me with stupid lame questions during the match.
he asked me," How come Zidane is bald? he`s onli 35 ryte? "
I replied, " How should i knw? "

Few mins later, he'll ask again.
" eh, how come the France's coach is younger then the italian's coach?"
i replied. " How on earth would i knw? Ask them. *pointing to the tv, does thier age really matter?"
he replied, " Maybe u knw.. *gives a weird looking face"

Lame.

He supported france, while i supported italy.

He couldnt stop provoking the italians after zidane gave France the lead.
" FRANCE WILL WIN! IM TELLING YOU!"

i jus kept quiet, and smile.

too bad. italians won.
on penalties.

so.
it was my turn to provoke!
hahaha.

he went straight to bed after that.
haha.

alrite.
stop here.
Hope it gets much better from now on.

for now,
i need to slp.
gd nite.
*cheers

WHEN YOU LOVE SOMEONE

2006-07-11T01:58:00.000+08:00

WHEN YOU LOVE SOMEONE

When you love someone so deep inside,
It seems like it's so easy to hide.
You've loved her for so very long,
You would think she could do no wrong.

Every day you would hope and pray,
That she would always stay this way.
She treated you like you should be treated,
You thought your life was finally completed.

You thought your love was growing true,
And then one day it was all so blue.
She started putting you down and it hurt,
You thought all you were to her was dirt.

She started ignoring you and you wondered why,
All you wanted to do was curl up and die.
You thought your relationship would never end,
But that was all so fake and pretend.

One night she was so sweet to you,
You thought all those things were maybe untrue,
Two days later she was back the same,
You thought you were the one to blame.

She thought the relationship was getting too serious
And that you had become a little too curious.
By this time you knew it wouldn't last,
All the nice things she said were in the past.

You thought that you would marry her some day,
But this time God wanted to get this way.
You wanted things back how they were before,
But you knew this couldn't happen anymore.

It was a Saturday night about ten o'clock,
You heard the news and it wasn't a shock.
You knew this was going to happen soon,
As you laid there and cried in the pale lit moon.

blah.blah stuffs

2006-07-08T21:14:00.000+08:00

so.
yea. my world cup fever is over for now.
but whu cares, im taking it as an advantage cos my parents let me watch soccer overnite wif my frens. haha.

So portugal will go against german later, guess im meeting my frens. haha, although im pretty tired in the morning went to kallang for soccer. and had a fcuking hell of a time. I and my frens found this place in kallang called "THE CAGE", where soccer is played on perfect beautiful carpet grass, inside a warehouse.
but its expensive lah~, 180bucks for 2 hours but its worth up.
err.. gtg.
im watching singapore idol.
and ryte on time.
"JASMINE's on TV ryte now.."

update soon.
bye

Argentina lost.

2006-07-01T02:02:00.000+08:00

oh well~
World cup has been very dissapointing.
First the Czechs were out of world cup. Then Croatia, and Spain. Now the Argentines were gone too. The Argentines were the better side against Germans. Guess Lady-luck wasnt by their side.

I blame the Argentine's Coach. For being so dumb?!. Why did he took out Hernan Crespo for Julio Cruz?!. Wad the fcuk!. He Should have put Lionel Messi instead!!. He would have been a real threat to the germans along side Carlos Tevez.

And he took out Juan Riquelme also?!.The Argentines were struggling i guess.

DUMBASS~!!

So when is Singapore goin to enter World cup?!
*let me think..

*BIG FAT IMPOSSIBLE SIGNBOARD

i guess so..

IM GOIN TO WRITE ABOUT MY OPINION ON SINGAPORE FOOTBALL.
ITS GOIN TO B BORING, I KNW.
SO IF U DUN LIKE IT, PLS DUN READ.

Im not sure wad FAS is doin. Spending money on foreign talents?! they used to paid Agu Casmir $12,000 per month. And that fellow was a slow-poke and not a good player at all in my opinion. FAS thinks its political issit? to buy "foreign talents!".
Its a waste of money actually. They should spend the money on developing BETTER QUALITY football fields so that football could be played in good quality. How to play Football wif Sandy fields?! or Mud-filled pitches? or those thick grass padangs. Once i played in this stupid field in punggol. THe field is full of stones and they charge it 100+dollars for 90min?.WTF!. Why should we be buying foreign talents?! we should be developing our very own talents. I suggest the money should oso be spend on searching young talents. No wonder Singapore football is shit. Money flies.. Football also Flies!

FOOTBALL CAN B VERY STUPID~

Back~

2006-06-30T14:11:00.000+08:00

alrite~im back~!

My phone came back to life,so u guys can contact me alraydi, alrite.

oh yea.
I found the vid of the girl who got beat up by a group of 5. Darn, Very heart-wrenching.Fcuking Bitches~!. Why so cruel beat up an innocent girl. If the victim was me, i would certainly fought back. On second thought, i wish i was there to stop it.

i heard the victim did it voluntarily though. ( dumb?! )

how i wish i could like sort of change the victim, to someone else who's more deserving to get beaten up, it would probably be a more happier video rather den a cruel one.Haha~, im already imagining it. i would looooovvvee to see it tat way. Den the laughing and joking around would be seen in a cruel way. Imagine everyone watching the video claping around, jumping, shouting, " MORE! MORE! HIT TAT BITCH HARDER! go~ go~. *to the tune of cadsbury chocolate comercial,"Wouldnt it be nice?!"
HHAHA.

alrite.
enuff craping.
tke cre.